I apologize for my absence (and the somewhat random pictures). These last couple of weeks have been a test. How much will it take before I rebook my flight home in fear of not succeeding? How much does it take before my graphic design instructor completely crushes what little there is left of my ego? Before the huge buildings in Midtown remind me that I have nothing to do here and that I can just dream on thinking that I do?
I want to tear these thoughts in pieces and set fire to them. In fact there are so many of them that I could literally make a little bonfire of it if I wrote them down. And because I know they are all nonsense, I stay. And I stay because I have some
sweet new friends, some
yet to know better and some that are supporting me in class.
And once in a while, when my shoulders are lowered, this place feels pretty amazing to me.
Oh, Anna. Those thoughts are, indeed, nonsense. "Life begins at the end of your comfort zone." Right, right? (I remind myself of that one all the time.)
ReplyDeleteOh you poor thing! Big Hugs!! Things may seem a bit tough but at least you are there experiencing the world! Enjoy as much as you can :)
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're struggling right now. I understand those feelings. I have a sense, though, that you will come out of this stronger and happier and having grown. If anyone can take this experience and make it into something meaningful, you can! Hugs!
ReplyDeleteDon't give up! You can do it! We may not know each other, but I wanted to let you know your photography is an inspiration, a marvel! I keep returning to your blog for these moments and unexpected angles you capture. Don't let one critic's words lower your spirits! You have admiring fans online! Stay strong!
ReplyDeleteThat is a beautiful comment! Thank you so much.
DeleteWe are somewhat too much permeable to what others think of us and deaf to what we know about ourselves!
ReplyDeleteBe brave Anna!
P.S very happy that you are posting again :)