On Friday we held a tiny dinner for my birthday at S' place.
It's always nice to meet good old friends, especially the ones you wished you had all the time in the world to do everything with, the ones that make you cry with laughter, and the ones you can dream aloud with. I had such a good time! Right until we started to talk about, which is something we always do, about what each and every one of us will be doing in the future.
Everyone usually has some idea or at least a plan. That's when worrying keeps taking a grip on me. If I only had that. Or better: if only I could go back and chose my career all over again. Then, I guess, all of us think that sometimes. Even when we know what a complete waste of time it is. Don't you agree?
I have really done my fair share of worrying, self loathing and blaming that exhausts me. I'm so completely done with it. Whatever will be, will be. Whatever I'll do, I'll do it. And I'll make the best of it.
love this post!;)
ReplyDeletean right, you´re totally right and I totally agree:)
love the roses..wow "my" colors..
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I love this! I find myself feeling the same thing, but I've been able to adopt this attitude more often lately and it feels great! Glad to hear your dinner party went well!
ReplyDeleteYep I hear you!! Sometimes I regret some of my past decisions, I wish I could go back and redo my education choices! Though, I have been very lucky to have had quite a few different great careers!! Arghhhh... I drive myself nuts sometimes!!! BUT you know...I wouldn't be where I am now, with my gorgeous man and beautiful little boy... so I wouldn't change a thing.. I think! :)
ReplyDeleteDon't worry about what everyone else is doing... do what you want to do :) I definately agree.. whatever will be, will be!
I'm so glad you had such great birthday.. there is nothing better than good friends and tears from laughter xxx
gorgeous roses <3
ReplyDeleteI go through the same thing as you but then I just take a deep breath, sit down make a list of short-term and long-term goals. then i look at the various ways they can be achieved, or if they're even realistic.
as for wants, the heart has many!
when the time is right…….you will know.
ReplyDeleteJkd: that's maybe not such a bad idea- the one with listing short term goals at least make you see things in perspective.
ReplyDeleteSuzie: I found out that this is absolutely right!
I find it hard to balance the goals and the spontaneity of life. I want it both ways! I guess I want it all. And it is hard not to regret some things in the past, but maybe that is what makes us human and maybe it will help us choose more wisely the next time around.
ReplyDeleteBut just wanted to say good luck and hope everything will get sorted and most of all that you won't feel bad. x
I was lucky, my mother changed professions a few times and I learned that you can do that. It doesn't have to be set in stone.
ReplyDeleteBut, I do agree there is a lot of pressure to pick one profession! I studied Graphic Design, I often look back and think what if...
I think we can use what we've learned in a variety ways. It doesn't have to be only one way.
Sometimes when we let go, things fall into place!
I agree that it can seem quite desperate trying to find some kind of plan. Every now and then I ask myself 'Why didn't I...' But then again, I'll just have to stick to my choices for now and maybe I can change them when it's time to do so... I guess, like Martta said, it's human.
ReplyDeleteBut I can't help myself. I sometimes wish that I had some clue on what to do with my life when I grew up.
In the end it will all turn out well. :-)
I did a 6 year undergraduate degree because I had no idea what I wanted to do. I spent much of it worrying that I was wasting precious time and money. In the end, because I waited and didn't rush in to make a quick decision, I am doing a masters that I enjoy and will enable me to have the career I want. Just go with it. Dont worry about not knowing. It is better that way anyways,much more exciting. Think about it, you could be anything!
ReplyDeleteLove that picture!
ReplyDeleteThis is such a great post. It's hard sometimes to let go, but it can be the best thing for us. There are things in life we're not supposed to know ;) I couldn't have said it better - Whatever will be, will be.
xoxo
Sounds like you are ready to live and let live! Awesome positivity :)
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